A lot has changed since I last posted, and I’m liking how things are going right now. I graduated high school on Saturday, which was extremely bittersweet since I’ve been at that school since kindergarten and I will miss it dearly, but I’m ready for what’s next: summer, Marist College, and many surprises! Graduation was awesome, and I won a bunch of awards/scholarships because I’m a nerd like that. Along with one award came a little gift…everyone at my school knew how huge of a Yankees fan I am…
A Yankees cap and a little Jeter bear! From Yankee Stadium. Thanks to CSEA rep Mrs. Filmanski, a fellow Yankees fan and genuinely sweet lady.
But even though I’m relatively intelligent, and a fairly knowledgeable baseball fan, sometimes I’m just so wrong about my beloved New York Yankees.
Obviously, baseball is unpredictable. I thought since the Yankees had lost key players like Derek Jeter and Bartolo Colon to the 15-day DL, that maybe they wouldn’t be winning so much. Well so far, I have been wrong, and I’m fine with that. If being wrong means my team will win, I hope I’m always wrong. Since getting swept at home by the Red Sox, the Yankees have gone 8-2 and are now 41-29 on the season, right behind the Red Sox in the AL East standings.
Derek Jeter, in the midst of his quest for #3,000, suffered a calf strain that will sideline him for at least the 15 days. Big blow for the fans, and an impacting factor for the team. Eduardo Nunez has filled in nicely for Jeter so far, coming up with many clutch hits. I have heard so much about the kid, but he hasn’t had much time to develop at the Big League level. Now is his chance, and he’s making the most of it. I can see now why the team thought so highly of him, and why they didn’t trade him for Cliff Lee last July when they had the chance to.
Aside from Nunez, other guys have really come alive since Jeter has gone down. Guys that I’ve been complaining about all year long – like Brett Gardner – are making me feel silly now. Gardner is hitting at an insane clip of .423 in June, and is now at .294 for the season. With Jeter gone, Gardner is getting the opportunity to shine in the leadoff spot, and he’s making the most of it. Skipper Joe Girardi has even become confident enough in Gardner to let him play against lefty pitchers.
Nick Swisher is another guy who has stepped up his game to make up for lost players. Swisher had the game winning homer in the 10-4 victory last night for the Yanks, and overall has played much more solid baseball. Maybe he’s trying to make a push for the All-Star team again? Last year I think I single handedly sent him to the game, “Sending Swish” for hours straight since voting was unlimited. I think he got hot a little late for that, but if he keeps hitting consistently well, he’ll be an All-Star in all the Yankees fans’ minds.
On the pitching side, the Yankees have suffered a huge blow with the loss of Bartolo Colon for at least 15 days. I was serious when I said he was my #1 so far. The “surprise” factor was a big deal for me. I just never expected anything out of Colon, not to mention Cy Young quality performances start after start from the guy. Losing him was not easy. Brian Gordon, whom I had never heard of until the Yankees signed him, made a start in Colon’s place against the Rangers, and did fairly well, going 5.2 innings and allowing 2 runs. The Yankees can survive with him in the rotation, just as long as the other guys do well, and if the bullpen continues to be amazing.
Yes, the bullpen IS amazing, despite the bombardment of injuries on guys like Chamberlain, Soriano, Feliciano, Marte, etc. The Yankees have a bunch of no-names like Cory Wade, Luis Ayala, and Jeff Marquez filling in. And to my surprise, these no-names are quickly making names for themselves. The Yankees bullpen has the best ERA in the AL. HOW is this possible? I am so blown away.
If you showed me this current Yankees roster in April, there would be no way that I’d think they’d be 1.5 games behind Boston. They have really impressed me. They’ve dug deep and stepped up big time. I wonder what’s going to happen when guys like Jeter, Colon, and Phil Hughes are activated once again.
As of right now, it looks like things can only get better.
Yanks Take First Three From Tribe
I shouldn’t complain too much…I mean at least we are winning this time. Then again, the Cleveland Indians are not the same Cleveland Indians of the earlier months. But, then again, the Yankees aren’t the same either. So they’re both different, so I guess that balances out. So these three wins for my Yankees WERE legit.
Game 1 was the first game in a long time that I sat down and watched from beginning to end without falling asleep! Ivan Nova toed the rubber, and had a surprisingly dominant outing. The offense was surprisingly alive as well, exploding for 11 runs with RBIs from Robbie Canooo, SwishyNicks, Jo-P0, Ahh-the-GrandyMan-Can, Brettiboo, A-Rod, Texy-Wexy, from up and down the loaded lineup. I’m proud to report that Brett Gardner has been playing much better baseball of late, as well as Mr. Jorge Posada, whose batting average is now way over that Mendoza line (and it appears it will only continue to rise above it). Maybe Jorge wasn’t hitting because his son was going to have ANOTHER surgery, and you know, maybe since he’s a man with a heart, maybe he was nervous/stressed/upset/unfocused because of it? And maybe since his son is now recovering and the worst is behind him, maybe Jorge can concentrate fully on baseball and breathe a sigh of relief? So maybe he’s not done, so stop pushing him out before his time?
Game 1 was fun to watch in regards to Nova and the offense, but it made me nervous at other times. Like after Curtis Granderson homered in the 2nd and Mark Teixeira was immediately plunked high up on his back – if he didn’t duck it could’ve hit is head – and a fight almost broke out between Joe Girardi and Indians skipper Manny Acta. That made me nervous/infuriated because I HATE WHEN MY BOYS GET HIT. But it was all good. The Yankees added on a bunch of runs after that. So HA-HA.
The other thing that made me nervous in Game 1 was the bullpen. Yeah. My fears are realistic. The bullpen was horrendous. Utterly dreadful. The Yankees, in the 7th , had an 11-2 lead, but they had to call on Mariano Rivera to get the final outs, because the bullpen just couldn’t do it. Just thank GOD for Mo…without him, we’d really have NO ‘pen whatsoever.
I missed the entire Game 2 because I was at Marist College’s Orientation! It was a spectacular day: I got to know some students, toured the campus, and felt comfortable there throughout it all. It’s nice knowing I picked the right place! But while I was enjoying my day, the Yanks had a game to play. Bartolo Colon, according to my brothers, had his typical stellar performance, but it was cut short after he hurt a hammy covering first base. He was taken out of the game, and he is now on the 15-day DL – and he says he will return in the 15 days, but they always say that…
That is a HUGE blow to this team. Bartolo Colon is one of the best pitchers in baseball right now. He’s better than CLIFF LEE. <<Yeah. I said it. And he’s a WAY better value. He, to me, is the Yankees #2 starter. And now he’s gone. The bullpen sucks, I don’t want the starting rotation to suck that badly. So the news of that 4-0 win was not as sweet as I would have hoped for.
Game 3 was extremely comforting, because I was saying how the starting rotation without Colon needed to step it up a notch, and Freddy Garcia stepped it up a few (especially when I remember his last outing…eeek). Freddy was phenomenal. 6.2 innings, 1 run, just everything the Yankees and I could have hoped for. And the offense? Explody once again, with contributions from everyone! INCLUDING those two guys I mentioned above – Brett Gardner and Jorge Posada – who are continuing their hot-hitting. Oh, and Jeet’s getting closer to #3000!
So after an icky bad stretch, the Yankees have themselves a modest three-game winning streak. The offense looks more alive, and I’m hoping overall they can be more consistent and keep this going. The starting rotation took a big blow with the loss of Colon, but if everyone can just do a littttttle bit more like what Freddy did, then maybe we can survive these “15 days” Colon promises. And the bullpen, well, I don’t know…(don’t ruin it, Virginia! You have to end on a good note!).
And um, I graduate a week from today! And my college is awesome!
The Yanks go for the SWEEP tomorrow.
Bullpen Fails in Heartbreaking 5-4 Loss
….or maybe JOE GIRARDI IS A MORON!!!
It’s too early in the season for this, and I have too much homework to not be doing, but I’m too frustrated so I need to vent.
Before I go completely insane, I should recap the game for those of you who were lucky enough to NOT see it. The first 7 innings were actually pretty entertaining. But from the 8th on, it was hard to watch.
CC Sabathia got the start last night in order to keep him on regular rest. My not-as-chunky-but-still-Hefty-Lefty tossed a fabulous game. He’s a God. Sabathia went 7 innings and allowed just 2 hits early in the ballgame.
Sabathia finished his night with a 4-0 lead, thanks to a 3-run BOMB by Teixeira and a solo welcome-to-the-Bronx home run from the smiley Andruw Jones. One of the highlights of my night last night was watching Andruw Jones try to catch a ball that ultimately went foul. The ball went directly into a fan’s meal, and sent it plummeting onto the field – right on Jones. It was amazing.
And of course after this, Jones never stopped smiling.
Anyways, Sabathia left the game having thrown 104 pitches. Not too many, but for this early in the season, it made sense to take him out.
But it didnt make any sense to me to put Rafael Soriano in. Note: I felt this way BEFORE he blew it.
First of all, Soriano has worked a respectable amound lately. Since the Yanks had a seemingly insurmountable 4-0 lead and the Twins bats were dead, I didn’t think there was a need to use the setup guy. He could have had the night off, and they could have started the 8th with David Robertson or someone. But no.
Another reason why I didn’t want Soriano in the game last night, is because it seems that whenever closers or guys with closer-like stuff and a closer-like mentality (Soriano) always SUCK when the team has a rather-large lead. Even the best guys, like Mariano Rivera, have experienced the non-save situation struggles. And when we all know that Girardi is a “master” at conserving and managing his bullpen guys, I just didn’t understand why in the world he decided to use Soriano last night, and why he let him suffer through that horrible inning.
Soriano wound up loading the bases with 1 out in the 8th. It was apparent after he faced the first batter that he had absolutely NO command, but Girardi didn’t do anything. Soriano walked in a run, and ultimately destroyed the Yankees’s chance of winning by giving away their 4-0 lead. Although he didn’t get the loss (they lost 5-4 in 10 innings), it was over after he blew it.
I don’t blame the bullpen for this loss. It’s not Rafael Soriano’s fault. He is an amazing pitcher when he’s doing his thing. But last night, he WASN’T doing his thing. He’s supposed to come in when the game is tight, not fold under the pressure, and get the guys out. Last night was not that situation, and I’m not mad at HIM for struggling…I’m just mad he struggled.
Joe Girardi is who I want to strangle. He said that if he could do it again, he’d to it the same way. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM? I mean is it me? It makes sense if you saw the game…the Twin offense was completely dead. That 4-0 lead seemed like 100-0. There was no need to use Soriano last night. I still believe that the Yankees have the best bullpen in baseball. This game doesn’t make me lose confidence in Soriano at all.
Joe Girardi…what are we going to do with you…
And tonight! I was already mad at Girardi tonight. He planned on sitting Derek Jeter, Russell Martin, AND Jorge Posada tonight. He wanted A-Rod to DH, and he was going to use Eduardo Nunez at short, Eric Chavez at third, and GUSTAVO MOLINA AND HIS SPRING BATTING AVERAGE OF .067 behind the plate. Wow. And with 5th starter Freddy Garcia on the mound. I mean really? Isn’t the idea, like, to win the game? Why would he sit half his team all in one game?
I don’t know…sometimes I think Girardi TRIES to lose. Some of his decisions are crazy.
Hey, Joe! Stop trying to lose! No need to throw games away…Maybe you’re trying to make things exciting and dramatic, trying to make the season come down to the wire, trying to keep Yankees fans on their feet.
The AL East is hard enough, just let my Yanks do the drama on their own.
As much as I wanted to see the game tonight to try and get my mind off the horrible loss, I’m almost glad they didn’t play tonight. With that lineup, things didn’t look too good anyway. Now EVERYONE gets the night off.
I wonder what Joe Girardi’s going to do tomorrow…
The Yankees didn’t waste any time making changes to their team. Already this offseason, a lot of stuff has happened. But the most interesting move the Yanks have made so far was firing their pitching coach of three years, Dave Eiland. Like many others, I have been speculating to why Dave Eiland really was fired. Was it because of the Yankee pitching staff’s ineffectiveness during the postseason? Or was it something else? Something….more…
I’ve combined my theories with the many other theories I’ve heard, and I have to say: I’m pretty pleased with what I’ve got.
Here’s some stuff I’ve had to consider:
-Eiland’s extended personal leave of abscence
-Eiland’s relationship with the pitchers, especially A.J. Burnett
-A.J. Burnett’s ineffectiveness
-A.J. Burnett’s black eye.
A.J. Burnett started off the 2010 season with a 3-0 record and a sparkling 2.43 ERA in his first month. From then on, everything fell apart. Burnett never went back to the “Good A.J.” June, especially, was an atrocious month for him. He posted an 0-5 record with a frightening 11.35 ERA. He never lived up to his potential in 2010, and it was frustrating to watch A.J. take the ball having not made any improvements.
In June, the time when A.J. Burnett really started to stink, Dave Eiland took an extended leave of abscence. It was personal, and no one commented on the reason to why Eiland had to leave the team. I didn’t know how long he was going to be gone. It was long, but it seemed longer because of Burnett.
Everyone spoke of Burnett and Eiland’s great relationship and how they really connected with each other. When Eiland returned in July, Burnett did improve a bit. That month, he went 3-1 with a 2.00 ERA.
But from then on, Burnett was the “Bad A.J.” and didn’t even show ANY signs of successfulness. One day in September, Burnett randomly had a black eye. It looked painful. And no one said a thing about it. Joe Girardi refused to comment on that.
I think Dave Eiland had a serious alcohol issue. I think it showed, badly, and it was so bad in June that the Yankees themselves asked him to leave and get help for however long he felt was necessary. I think Burnett was stinky in June because he was not used to not having Dave Eiland around. I think Eiland helped get Burnett back on track in July. But I think Dave Eiland had a personal setback in his sobering process. And I think that’s why Burnett also had some serious setbacks on the mound.
A.J. Burnett kept saying he was working hard to fix his issues. I believe him. And I think he was, but Eiland was too messed up to help Burnett properly. I think A.J. Burnett confronted him in September, because he promised us, the fans, that he would do better. I think A.J. told Eiland he was sick of his behavior, and that Eiland needed to straighten himself out before he could help A.J. straighten himself out. I don’t think Eiland liked that very much…and I think there was an altercation between the two. I think Dave Eiland is the one who gave A.J. Burnett that nasty black eye.
I don’t think the Yankees liked this very much, and I don’t think they liked the fact that almost all of their pitchers who had issues didn’t make any progress in the second half of the season. I don’t think the Yankees wanted to draw a ton of attention to poor Dave Eiland, so they waited until now to fire him.
But again, I’m just speculating…
I’ve had some time now to try and get over the Yankees’ elimination. It hasn’t gone well. What a surprise…
Instead of moping about my poor boys’ fate, I’ve been angry. Angry at the Texas Rangers. Now every time I think about them, I find something else that bothers me. There is just nothing to like about these guys. I have a list of reasons why I hate the Rangers…and I might have to keep on revising it. Here’s what I have so far:
–Lack of Hygiene
The Rangers are gross. I mean eeew. Elvis Andrus, especially. The dude hasn’t cut his hair since before Spring Training. Think about how gross that is…
What an attractive man…
My Yankees have a very strict hygiene policy. They always have to be clean shaven, neat, well-dressed, and classy-looking. ALL of my Yankees look hot and sexy all the time. What a bunch of guys ♥
Another Texas Ranger who is gross is Ron Washington. EVERY SINGLE TIME the camera is on him, he’s chewing. And spitting. Chewing…spitting…chewing…spitting…ENOUGH ALREADY!!! His area of the dugout must be overflowing with seeds. I’ve never seen a baseball man chew and spit as much as Ron Washington. It’s utterly disgusting.
STOP IT ALREADY!!!
Speaking of Ron Washington, I just thought of another GROSS habit of the Rangers…
–They Do Drugs
This one is self explanatory. I wouldn’t want to hang around a bunch of druggies. Josh Hamilton was a drug addict. But I shouldn’t pick on him. He’s a good guy. Now he’s clean, and he has turned over a new leaf. I do respect Hamilton.
As for Ron Washington, yeah…I don’t respect him at all. I mean he’s an old guy. An old guy doing cocaine? That’s worse than a young guy doing cocaine. He should’ve known better. What a way to be a role model for the team.
Joe Girardi is quite the opposite of Washington. Although I don’t always agree with every move he makes, I know he’s a good manager – and an even better guy. Girardi is a family man. And he is a great role model for his players. For a 46 year old, Girardi is in fabulous shape – he looks like he can still play.
This one really gets on my nerves. For some reason, the Texas Rangers have 4 different uniforms. The white one, the gray one, the RED one (with a red hat and red socks), and the BLUE one.
There are a few things that really bug me about these uniforms. First, they wear the stupid red one more than they wear their white one. And since the hat and socks are red with that one, they don’t even look like the Texas Rangers. My brother and I always say this: there are TOO MANY TEAMS who wear red. Why must the Rangers wear red when it’s not even their color?
But look closely at all of the Rangers’ uniforms. What do they all have in common?
They ALL say “TEXAS.”
If I didn’t know who they were, I would NEVER know they were the Texas Rangers. Not one place on any of their uniforms does it say “Rangers.”
Why don’t they just change their name to “Team Texas” or something! It’s so obnoxious! I mean what are they trying to prove???
My Yankees have the perfect baseball uniforms. They don’t have seven thousand different combos of unis. They have a home jersey, and an away jersey. They wear their home whites and road grays. And they have their warm-up navy uniforms. The home uniforms have the Yankee symbol, the road one says “New York.” When looking at the Yankees, you know they are the Yankees. With the Rangers, not so much. It’s hard to tell what team they are because they have SO MANY STUPID UNIFORMS!!!!
–Claw and Antlers?
Do I even have to explain this one? I mean, just how lame could they get? CLAW and ANTLERS??? What the heck does that even mean? And do they REALLY have to do it every single time they get a hit or steal a base? Talk about obnoxious…I’m glad my Yankees are classy.
And the stupid Texas fans make it worse. They embraced these idiotic expressions. Why? WHAT ARE THEY? The team tried to create something to give them character, but they failed. What do claws and antlers have to do with the Texas Rangers? Or Team Texas, or whatever they are. I’m surprised they didn’t add this ridiculous thing to their excessive uniform wardrobe:
It’s perfect for the team to add to their uniforms. Just like the other ones: You can’t tell what team it’s for and it doesn’t say “Rangers” anywhere on it.
Oh look! How appropriate. They have it in RED, too!!!
God. This team really bothers me. I sure hope they lose. Go Giants!
I love you, Yanks!
Yanks 2010 Season Ends
Well, it wasn’t as good as last season…that’s for sure. As I watched the ALCS unfold, I saw what was going on, and I accepted it. But looking back now, I’m just so confused. I have so many questions, and I don’t know the answers. But what keeps lingering in my mind is: What happened to the Yankees? What went wrong?
Too many things. And not enough went right.
-The Long Layoff
Now I’m not trying to make “excuses” to why the Yankees lost, but let’s be realistic here. The Yankees had to wait an eternity for the Rangers and Rays to close things out. They beat the Twins so quickly that they were just sitting around. Of course they were still hyped up, but they lost some of their momentum – but more importantly, they lost their rhythm. Remember how in the ALDS it seemed like everyone was contributing to the success? Well, that didn’t happen this time. The only guys who really did well were Curtis Granderson and Robinson Cano. And I pat them on the back for a job well done.
Unfortunately, their contributions were not enough. The Yankee pitching was ATROCIOUS in this series. Could it have been due to the rest factor? Maybe.
-Mark Teixeira’s Hammy
The Yankees were already down in the series and were struggling offensively. So when their star slugger Mark Teixeira destroyed his hamstring while hustling out a grounder, the entire team was hurt. You could just see it. No one was going to admit it, but it’s obvious: they probably thought they were screwed withough Teix – especially because the offense was pretty dead already.
Don’t get me started. I like Girardi, but as I’ve said before, I just don’t understand him sometimes. This was especially true in ALCS game 6 – the Yankees final game. Intentionally walking Josh Hamilton once to get to Vlad Guerrerro was enough. He’s lucky he got away with that move. But by having Phil Hughes do that AGAIN, Girardi was almost asking for trouble. My Grandma and I said that to each other as soon as we saw Joe wiggle the 4 fingers. We knew it would blow up in his face even before Guerrerro got the hit. And we were right. Then he put in David Robertson who, wo put it nicely, hasn’t seen much success this postseason, and he let the game get away from the Yankees. From then on, the Yankees had terrible at-bats, and you could just see it in their eyes: they knew they were going home.
As for me, of course I am devastated. I love my Yankees more than anything, and I want to be able to watch them for as long as possible, Sadly, it ended too early this year. But that’s selfish. I really feel bad for the YANKEES. They wanted to win this so badly, but they just didn’t play well. They really embarrassed themselves. I feel so bad for my boys. They shouldn’t have lost…they deserved to win. But they didn’t play like they deserved it.
I guess I should give credit to the Rangers. I mean they did beat my boys. They really made my Yankees look bad. But really – the Yankees made themselves look bad, too. They helped them out a bit. And a good team like the Rangers capitalizes off another team’s mistakes. That’s exactly what happened. Sure, the Rangers are having their best season. They are a very good team. Maybe they do deserve to win.
Of course I will never admit that. The Yankees have been through so much this season. I think the Yankees should have won it all this season just as a tribute to the Great George Steinbrenner. It’s kind of unfair that they didn’t, but again – it was their fault they lost.
And who says life is fair, anyway? Maybe the best team doesn’t always win.
But the great thing about life is that you can always try to redeem yourself. More often than not, you get another chance in life.
And for my Yankees, this other chance begins on March 31, 2011.
That’s when the Quest for 28 begins again.
Yankees, I’d like to thank you for this exciting 2010. Just because it didn’t end they way we planned doesn’t mean we have to just forget it. You had a great season. I know you are the best team…you just didn’t win when it counted. I still love you ♥
Thanks for the memories ♥
“The time has come to test thy courage,” said the Great Deku Tree to Link. Link, just a little boy, did what he had to do to try and save the Deku Tree in what is arguably the greatest video game ever made, “The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time.” He may have been frightened, but he was in no place to worry. Link just put aside whatever worries he may have had, and walked right into the tree into a mess of enemies. He didn’t sit there for days worrying or trying to hypothesize what would happen – he just did what he had to do.
Oh, if ONLY I was more like Link…
In these few days before the Yankees and Twins go at it in the ALDS, I have been a mess. I’ve been trying to predict who will pitch well, who will hit well, who will WIN, everything. It’s driving me insane. I wish I could just sit back, relax, and let what happens happen. But I just CAN’T.
One thing my mind has been wrestling over the past few days has been the Yankee pitching. CC Sabathia is going up against Francisco Liriano in game 1. Then it’s Andy Pettitte for game 2, and Phil Hughes for game 3. The Yanks are going with the 3-man rotation like last season…or is it.
I’m going to be honest: I had WAY more confidence in the Yankee pitching last year. This year? Not so much…especially down the stretch. I’m just so worried about these three guys the Yankees are sending out there. Phil Hughes, on paper, has had a nice season, but he has been pretty darn bad in the second half. Andy Pettitte has had just three starts since his long DL stint. He was good in the first game, but the last two were hard to watch. Then there is CC…Oh, CC…C”Cy,”….my sweet Hefty-Lefty. CC has been the best pitcher in baseball since he joined the Yankees…why should I worry about him?
BECAUSE HE’S BEEN SOOOO GOOD FOR SOOOO LONG THAT HE’S BOUND TO DO BADLY SOONER OR LATER!!!
And because the pressure is on him! Okay it was on him last year when he was the ace, but there is more pressure this year because EVERYONE ELSE SUCKS!!! Last year Burnett was a beast, and Pettitte was healthy and successful….This year is SO different and I really don’t like it.
Okay that’s a little unfair – everyone else doesn’t suck. I’m sorry guys…I’m just a little stressed out here…you know I didn’t mean that.
And who am I kidding? Pressure…CC Sabathia…Pshhh…yeah right. Hello! Earth to Virginia! You call him C”Cy” for a reason!
I’m not really worried about the offense…I’m more worried about Joe Girardi. He tends to do things his way…which backfires more often than one would think. He handles the bullpen well, but not so much the lineups. I saw that Austin Kearns is on the postseason roster…I can’t help but to worry if Girardi is going to utilize his lefty-pitcher-righty-hitters lineup, which would feature the strikeout king himself, Austin Kearns. I just wish Girardi will use his best players. I hope he listens to me. Just because the opposing team has a lefty pitcher doesn’t mean the Yankees had to send out subpar righties. It’s stupid.
Girardi, all I ask of you is to send out the Yankees best troops, no matter what the situation.
Well, tomorrow’s the big night. There is nothing I can do about it. I mustn’t worry, for what good will that do now? The performance of my Yankees is out of my control. I must accept this, and I must be brave.
-Deep breath, sigh-
Indeed, the time has come to test thy courage, MY courage, in this 2010 postseason.